I have toned up enough and lost enough weight that people are starting to comment and ask questions. I kind of hate that. Despite publishing all of my secrets through blogs on the internet I don't get personal with many people face to face... I feel like this weight loss and getting into shape is personal. It is about me setting right so many things in my heart and in my mind.
I am rather close with one lady that stopped me in the hall today and we chatted for a bit. (She is like my Southern Mama. My real mom is far far away but I have my Southern Mama and she looks after me. She wants to set me up with her son and we are not close enough yet for me to tell her why that won't work...) I told her about hiking up Timpanogos this summer and what a big deal that is to me that this was my biggest motivation for getting in shape.
I don't understand why doing this, hiking this mountain again, is so crucial but it is. I wake up with images of this mountain lingering on my eyelids from my dreams. I work out pretending I can feel the Utah sun on my back and can smell the forest dirt in my nostrils. I google "Timpanogos" and read all everything that comes up after work.
I don't know why but preparing for this hike is very healing. I was a very emotional eater and I can't help but wonder if burning these stored calories is releasing the emotions I did not deal with. It is setting me from the drama of my past.
July is still so far off but I am so excited about this.
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